life have to go on...no matter wat

2008-09-04T15:06:00.001+08:00

2008-09-01T22:59:00.004+08:00

m i losing everyone one by one???
it feels like it
one by one pple coming out of my life
it feels like i m the bad person???

dis is the oat cookie i baked today!!!!
yea yea yea
is finally a success!!!! =)

i had all my cravings=)
laksa...nasi lemak...sushi...stingray...bbq chicken wings...n cafe cartel's ribs=)
i m a happy gal=)

2008-08-26T12:24:00.001+08:00

ur words woke me up
n i want to say thank you

2008-08-25T22:52:00.002+08:00

觉得我有一点疯了
疯了
为什么你越不理我我越想更多
是不是我做错了什么
或者你已经怨卷我了
是不是觉得我很烦

是不是我开始慢慢喜欢你
我希望不是
希望没有这个可能行

2008-08-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

你们都好吗？
希望都很好

你们忘了我吗？
你们抛弃我吗？
你们不要我吗？
这些问题我不在问自己了
因为我想通了
只希望你们在做的事顺顺利利
只希望在你们脑海里某个角落偶而记得我就好了
我就满足了

2008-08-17T22:19:00.003+08:00

突然好想被抱
想念被抱的感觉
all i need is a hug

2008-08-13T21:31:00.002+08:00

can u plz stop shouting n nagging
i m not the only one who cant stand it ok
i come back to have a quiet time
with all ur shouting n nagging
wat i have
n dun step on my tail ok

2008-08-07T23:19:00.001+08:00

my first time listening to thai song
n
i go to say its nice!!!!

one of the F4 member intro me de
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cfu5FhzljZU&feature=related

can go n listen n see the video
the main lead of the group is soooo shuai!!!!!

2008-08-06T00:30:00.003+08:00

tioman trip has been cancelled
BUT!!!!!
i m going redang instead!!!!
muaha...
pray there is room!!!!

2008-08-05T00:20:00.003+08:00

taken at malaysia desaru fruit plantation
had fun tat day
saw many fireflies n stars=)

booked tioman trip
dis time with friends=)
hopefully there r rooms for us
if not.......

my dad is finally back!!!!

i have been playing the bad person
feeling tat i have been hated by someone

2008-07-30T22:29:00.001+08:00

i going back to the old me
i m talking lesser n lesser each day

tats all

think u guys r back
juz hope u guys enjoyed urselves during the trip
n hope u guys r fine
going anywhere can juz leave me a msg=)

2008-07-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

i want to take more beautiful pictures
from different places
will time allow???
m i financial stable to do so???

shit...
i m sick
the stupid guy "curse" me
haha

random random random

2008-07-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

最近心情好复杂
不知道是为了什么

i noe dis is a very old song
but i juz fell in love with dis song
when i heard it from dis cd my friend lend me

open arms - journey

lying beside you, here in the dark
feeling your heart beat with mine
softly you whisper, you're so sincere
how could our love be so blind
we sailed on together
we drifted apart
and here you are by my side

so now i come to you, with open arms
nothing to hide, believe what i say
so here i am with open arms
hoping you'll see what your love means to me
open arms

----

living without you, living alone
this empty house seems so cold
wanting to hold you, wanting you near
how much i wanted you home
but now that you've come back
turned night into day
i need you to stay

so now i come to you, with open arms
nothing to hide, believe what i say
so here i am with open arms
hoping you'll see what your love means to me
open arms

---

i noe my posts r getting more n more random
really dunno wat else to post
or my life isnt as exciting as before???

i miss my dad badly...
sob~

2008-07-17T00:41:00.002+08:00

忘记爱一个人的感觉是什么
忘记抱一个人的感觉是什么
忘记被爱的感觉是什么
我什么都忘了

如果没有你
没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你
我在哪里
又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自己

2008-07-14T21:51:00.002+08:00

i dunno wats happen dis days
something is juz up there in my head
i cant get it out
haiz

life has never been so boring

i miss my dad

i noe dis is random

2008-07-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

bought a new korean drama OST piano book
there r lots lots lots of spring waltz drama ost
n all r really nice
n tat leads me into re-watching the drama again...
dis song is one of the OST
i m sooo gonna get the OST =)

i really need a job...
hope my piano teacher still need me

i also need a new wallet!!!!
no more coach wallet...
good or bad news???
haha
nvm..
shall serach for new wallet=)

2008-07-07T20:02:00.002+08:00

sch started last week...
ok i guess???
haha...
not sure...

met up with the slackers on sat...
was really nice seeing them
n feel really bad for letting them wait with me tat night...
really very sorry guys...

i m missing my dad
his gone to germany for 1 month
not gonna be seeing him till august
sob

stay strong
2 words for u

2008-07-02T22:03:00.002+08:00

sch starting tml...
here it goes man...

have been spending sooooo much lately
feeling soooo freaking gulity
haiz

soooo really need to find a job...
i need job!!!!

today
went tanning with crystal
we r sooo damn hardowrking ok
haha
the sun was reallly good the weather was rellf good
crystal every tuesday ok???
haha
den after tat pei her go BPP to alter her pants
den went town alone to meet eve...
bought a dress n shorts!!!!
i love the dress
ahha
den we went over to PS to find my music book there
n....
n....
it was so freaking unlucky ok
saw tat guy...
at first i thought i saw wrongly
but no...
tats him...
with his army friends i think...
den i told eve abt it n she saw him...
i juz pretend i din see him...
n juz went into yamaha n look for my book
eve was like wantitng to go out n give hima good scolding...
but she din...

wat unlucky day ya
haiz
thought its was a good day
but no...

i hope our friendship will last till we grow old=)
for u f4s
my brothers
=)

2008-06-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

ohh gosh

sch gonna starts in juz a few days time
dunno how will it be like...
though is 4 times a week n 3 and a half hour per lesson
but dunno how hard will it be
it has been sooo long since i study
haha

i m gonna find part time job real soon
really in need of money
piano teaching or tution
or maybe both???
haha
really hope my piano teacher still need pple
haha

f4
love dis group of pple=)

2008-06-25T15:08:00.003+08:00

i heard dis song from the radio
n i fell in love with dis song

realize-colbie cailat

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by..
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no its never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

2008-06-24T16:38:00.003+08:00

for those who noes...
i hate one part of my body...
haha

i went to get rid of it early today...
its my first session...
=)
n its great...
my doctor is a great person
haha

other than tat...
i went to cut n dye my hair...
lots of changes...
i still haven get the piercing i want
haha
its too ex...

我不再要求什么
现在这个友情我不能失去
如果有一天奇迹发生
我当然会很开心
可是我不再渴望什么了
也许还没轮到我吧
=)

2008-06-23T11:45:00.002+08:00

went to crystal house to play mj...
haha
ithas been soooo long we played mj...
haha
i lost a bit...

den went with him n his friend to east coast park kpub
first time to dis type of pub
den he told me his dad is coming!!!
i was like OMG!!!!
but it is aint tat bad after all...
singing in pub was not so bad also=)
had some new friends there too=)

thanx=)
like wat i say all outings with u r always great=)

2008-06-19T10:54:00.003+08:00

a day out with u is never boring
even though is juz a simple movie
or juz singing
u made wonders???
haha
even though we walked from orchard to lavendar
even though u were already near home
even though u were already tired
u are still willing to accompany me

thanx=)

m i falling in too deep???
i m really scare things wun turn out to be wat i want
let nature take its course tats wat i had
i hope i can

2008-06-17T18:00:00.002+08:00

when will a fairytale happen on me???
it never happen
not once
or should i say
when i thought it is
it happens to be a nightmare

had such a great night yesterday=)
all thanx to u!!!
u should be honoured k
i seldom sing with pple tat i m not close
haha
i shall try singing in pub k???
haha

r u the one???

2008-06-16T12:24:00.003+08:00

im back!!!

haha

tioman was fun!!!

the snorkling n all

haha

n i have seen the best sunset ever!!!

oh man

but...

i m going there again!!!!

cant wait to go!!!

hey

if u reading tour guide

haha

i really enjoy my time there=)

before tioman

met up with janice

haha

going out with her is never a boring outing

haha

went to IT fair after her work

bought external hard drive

den went for dinner at sakae

ate a lot!!!

but the most filling dinner

den we walk around n went off

though is a simple outing

but i juz love spending time with her

haha

to end my post

2008-06-08T20:27:00.002+08:00

dis week is the first after my contract end
have been at home for 5 days!!!
out 2 days...

fri went back sch to collect cert
den me cry jan ate at canteen1
miss the food there!!!
den after tat
went to my house there the hair salon
den went to my house n slack
after tat went to raffles place there
to register SAA
followed by dinner at Manha korean resturant
love the food there!!!!
k...
den gavin drove me cry vivien to eve office there
to fetch her den go to demesy road there
to eat ben n jerrys ice cream
i love the place there now!!!!

ok
the best part...
we asked gavin to bring us to geylang there
haha
we wanted to see the surroundings there
we went to eat tim sum first
den gavin drove us around geylang
den sent each of us home

its a great night on fri=)

2008-06-01T21:00:00.002+08:00

i love dis song in my blog
though is not the orignal singer
the original singer is Vincent

met slackers yesterday
as usual a meeting with them is never boring
is always fun
met them around the evening
den around like 11 plus went to cafe del mar
the atmosphere not bad
den later
went to watch midnight movie

haiz...
one by one they r going for NS
lesser meetings
i will miss them!!!

2008-05-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

muaha

the second day of GSS
i bought...
tanya's cd
step up 1 dvd
bag
dress
belts
a pair of earrings

wallet
wheres the wallet???
cant find any wallet tat i like

2008-05-23T15:57:00.002+08:00

things i want to get during dis GSS

heels
leggings
wallet
tanya's cd
step up 1&2 dvds
...
ehh
i cant think of any more

haha
another 30 more mins n i m off...

another one more week
i m done...

2008-05-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

group photo on 18may08

it has been four years

n i m glad we r still dis close after so long

we were from completely strangers

to close friends

we do have moments when we din like

n we do have moments that we hope it can last longer

all i have to say

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

2008-05-19T19:36:00.002+08:00

yesterday dinner was ok
food was nice
juz tat pple can be so disappointing at times
n dis time really disappoint me alot
din really get into the mood during the dinner
but seeing friends enjoying their dinner
i m more than happy enough
as i really dunno when will be the next time where we can meet up in such a big group
guys going for ns
girls working or studying

wanting to take pics with everyone individually
but i fail to

went to sing kbox
enjoyed myself there
juz wan to say sorry if i have dragged everyone to go n sing
but i guess no all pple reads
so...

should have been put away long ago
but y does it keep coming back
i really have enough
i really juz want to live my life peacefully tats all
y is it so hard

but it feels like u have someone in mind
or maybe i m wrong
but i got no say
i m nothing to u

2008-05-14T16:27:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i blog
nothing interesting happen
so not much to blog abt

lots of events coming up
cousin's wedding
ta29's class anni/sh birthday/grad dinner
grad day

few days ago was vivi 21st bithday celebration=)
was really fun
soooooo many pple
really hope she like the gifts we gave her
n hope she enjoyed her time during the chalet=)

till den
will post pics up=)

2008-04-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

yaithinktomuch
yaimemotinal
yaimalwaysliketat
tatswatim
watcanido
uthinkiwantitdisway
nooneunderstands
nooneunderstands
nimallalone

itsallintheheaditsallintheheartnitssafeinthere

2008-04-20T21:34:00.003+08:00

i guess no one reads anymore
i guess no one cares anymore
i guess no one ask anymore
i guess no one talks anymore

i guess its of no use anymore

2008-04-10T20:52:00.002+08:00

receive the graduation letter today
3 years flew like the wind
gone
missing every loving every little bits of the 3 years
be it the tears the laughters the joys the sorrows
its part of my life
the people r the greatest
every single one of them
no words can describe them
where will we be in years to come
will we be the same
will we be lost in contact
will we be still like now
time will tell

4 words
I LOVE YOU EVERYONE!!!

2008-04-01T19:46:00.001+08:00

tired of everything

really want a good getaway

feels like sometimes i m not welcome
feels lke there r dragger behind me

2008-03-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

i dreamt of something which will never occur to me

saying"i love her"
i was so happy...
over the moon...
it felt sooo real...
never i had a dream so real...
din want to wake up from tat dream...
but i noe i had to get back to the reality...

n soon i woke up...
making myself disappointed...
but i noe...

its juz a dream...

2008-03-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

dunfeeltatwelcomeanymore

2008-03-17T20:07:00.001+08:00

pple in the company i m working at r really nice pple =)
n i m glad of tat...hehe

though the work load is 10x more than wat i did in pwc
but is ok...
at least time pass faster like tat
haha

i hope the rest of the gals r fine too=)

2008-03-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

beingaloneonceagain

2008-03-14T17:05:00.002+08:00

one great movie i want to intro to all will be

August Rush

its abt an orphan using music to find his parents

its got to be one of the greatest movie i seen in my life

music lover will definately love it

can catch it in threater which i think will be out soon or its already out
if not u can catch it online

2008-03-14T14:34:00.001+08:00

back from BKK

starting work on monday
sooo soon...
i haven slack enough
but i guess i need money
so cant complain
really hope it will be much better than my apt

2008-03-08T21:36:00.003+08:00

went out with my dear eve today=)

went to watch sky of love!!!!!
eveyone should go n watch it!!!!
the most touching movie i ever watch
cried like nobody biz during the movie...

leaving for thai tml...
will be back on the 13th night...
pray tat will reach there safely
travel safely
come back safely

n crystal!!!!
dun give up!!!
who noes when i m back u got a job!!!!!

for now...
everyone take care!!!

2008-03-06T16:34:00.002+08:00

i got a job!!!
but it till end of april...
but
better den nothing
maybe after tat may go to my mum side family biz

money money money

sun is coming~~
haha
yea
going BKK!!!
shop shop shop

havenseenyouforaweek
gotdsifeelingyoudunnowannameeetup
onlymanagetogetagimpliseofyouyesterday

2008-03-02T23:52:00.001+08:00

心痒痒

who r u to keep lecturing me

2008-03-02T11:30:00.003+08:00

had a wonderful time with slackers yesterday
being the only girl in such a big group is a good though...haha
went to career and education fair with daven first...
got all those info i wanted to get den off we go to find the rest of them
met them at cine
after tat went to the level9
book a room n played MONOPOLY for 2 hours
muaha
damn fun to play monopoly with them=)
den took gene's car n went to suntec for dinner
where its gene's treat....

thanx gene (if u r reading) =)
we ate at tony roma
the ribs r the best!!!!!
den lulu suggest clubbing
den off we went after tat
went to zouk...
haha...
sooooo last minute thing
den only me daven ming hui ming dong lulu went
gene n loon phern were wondering around waiting for us to come out
den we went to phuture!!!!!
my first time there...
the music is damn freaking nice...
all RnB n hip hop...
should go there next time again
den ming dong got us 4 BIG jags of house pour
2 long island 1 rum with something...another is tequila with something...
ohh god
i drank way beyong my limit
n i can say it feels damn freaking UMCOMFORTABLE!!!
i noe i wasnt walking straight
but my mind is still clear
went toilet twice to threw out
the second time i went to toilet
i couldnt see properly
i was like some sort of blind???
i den i drop my phone on the toilet
den trying so hard to find it with the situation i had
den i couldnt take it...
ming dong pei me outside to sit down
den called loon phern n gene to come n pei me
coz there is another "high" person inside tat i couldnt fang xin
so ask ming dong to quickly go back in...
den when everyone is done with clubbing tat is around like 3 plus
went back home...

sooo in conclusion...
never drink beyond ur limit
2 cups is enough for me

sorry for this lengthy post

2008-02-29T17:29:00.003+08:00

m going crazy soon

there is juz soooo many things going through my head

really going crazy soon

can someone plz give me a tight slap on my face

wake me up

stop me frm all the thinking

the doubting

i really cant do it anymore

没人管
没人在呼
知道多辛苦
我快窒息了

2008-02-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

have u ever feel like u r left out???
or
someone is not telling u something???

coz i always feel tat way
n it feel really sux

i always tell myself not to care or get affect by it
but it is juz so hard some times

esp....

2008-02-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

plz pull me back

abt to fall

2008-02-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

finally its over

mixture of feelings

22feb08 fri
after our lasat paper
went to town
meet up with the rest of TA29
ate dinner n chat
den K-ing at partyworld!!!!
the craziest time i ever had!!!!
really enjoyed myself...
n was the latest time tat i reach home
hehe

23feb08 sat
having only 5 plus hours of sleep
wake up
went to yc house play mj
haha
den watch movie

24feb08 sun
ZOO!!!!
in another 7 more hours = )
update abt tat soon

soo many programmes
n i need cash!!!!

2008-02-19T22:38:00.008+08:00

pics post...

JAN BABIES BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION 25/01/08

the main highlight of the day

organise by TA29 =)

n they got me lovely gifts =)

n janice got dis

eve got...

li ching got...haha...

haha...no la hers she gotten on her birthday

a guess bag...haha...

den they got us a cake =)

had an enojyable day tat day

thanx for the present n the celebration =)

2008-02-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

feel so troubled now

but i dunno y

2down
3 more to go

2008-02-14T16:30:00.003+08:00

firstly

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!!! =)

i read my god sis blog abt have the first set of goal...

n i thought abt mine...

n i thought of...

mini cooper!!!!

yea!!!!

tat will be my goal!!!!

2008-02-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

m i closing up myself???

it looks like it...

plz get me into mood for studying...
dun wish to stay back another year...

2008-02-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

a boring cny

everything seem so quiet now
everything starting to change

2008-02-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

simple n cheap meal with great company make ur day=)

hokkien mee
stingray
sugarcane

=)

2008-02-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

starting to have a little hatred in u...

sometimes wat u said like din think abt pple around u???
abt wat u said today
like a bit bu shuang
haiz
i dunno

when i read this particular blog...
u seem so caring n all...
i noe i got no right to get green...
but...
some how i m...

its really time
really time
for me to go on
n
not stop here

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

this above is a result from a test i did which i saw in my friend's blog
n i got to say is sooo damn true...

2008-01-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

birthday was great with great company=)

juz want to thanx for those who came
n thanx for the lovely present

i hug honeydew milkshake to sleep everynight=)

2008-01-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

it seems like u enjoy much more without us =)

2008-01-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

feeling all alone

most BFFs r either in relationship or busy with work or overseas
sometimes asking for help or wanting to share problems make me think twice
dun want to add load to them when they already got so much to think abt

have to learn to be independent

another 38 more days to end of poly life
3 years juz gone with the wind
have been through a lots
be it happy moments or sad moments
i wil cherish it a lot
made great friends whom an impact in my life
letting me not wanting to be be apart from them
the thought of leaving them soo soon
makes me feel so unsecure
coz each one of them have been always there for me
always helping me
always picking me up when i fall deep
always putting a smile on my face
always making my day so special
i dunno wat they think abt me but...
i juz want to say a BIG thank you to all of U...

eve
steph
crystal
janice
li ching
yc
the rest of TA29
each one of u also made an impact in my life
n i m very happy to noe everyone of u guys

no matter wat future comes ahead of us
i really hope we would still be like the present TA29

once a again a BIG thank you =)

2008-01-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

it seems like u r enjoying urselves...

got noting much to say...

feels like i m all alone again...

2008-01-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

juz want to give my blessings to two of my lovely friends...

u noe who you r can liao...

when will i get blessing???haa

2008-01-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

the thought of final exams r coming...
the more afraid i m...

those who noes will understand...
n i juz saw...
audit final exams consist on 60%...
when i see dis...
i told myself...SHIT...
n the thought keep haunting me...
n wat i heard from my friend tat...
audit exam will more much harder tahn CT...

i m really dead...

can anyone plz help me???

now i m more afraid of audit than claw...

2008-01-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

"my mama always say you gotta put the past behind you before you can move on"

sometimes i wish i can do it...

2008-01-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

its only the 2nd day of 2008

n i already starting to hate it

how m i going to continue with it???

2008-01-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

new year resolution:

1. dun "haiz" so much
2. try to lead a happeier life
3. forget him really forget him

the rest still thinking

2007-12-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

2008 is coming soon

dis year i havent been a good year for me
lots of things happen be it relationship...family or friends...
too many things happen...
n is all not good thing...

n i m going to cmi soon...
too many thing juz happen at one time...
is feels like i cant breathe anymore...

wat i really hope is a really great year for me in 2008
tats all i really hope
juz want everything to go smoothly for me tats all i ask for...
n juz a little luck (for those who noe wat i m referring to)

tml new year eve
celebrating with my lovely classmates =)
going to watch fireworks with them!!!
den overnight mj with them=))
fun fun fun...

i m gonna enjoy dis year new year eve much more than last year

goona be sick soon....

2007-12-29T01:06:00.000+08:00

who r u referring to???

i feel so useless

2007-12-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

stop looking back!!!

2007-12-25T19:33:00.000+08:00

haven been in a good mood all day long...

haiz...

2007-12-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

finally common tests r over...

pple plz pray for me for my claw n audit papers...

haha...

after paper...
me...crystal...elsa n eldora went to watch fan wei qi campus concert in NP!!!
she is soooooo pretty n talll!!!!
n she touch my hand!!!!!
haha...

k...den after tat...me n crystal went to town to find yc n jk
den after tat eve n sh came n join us...
we had sushi buffeat at sake sushi...
we stayed there till like 9 plus...
den we walk to The Cathay...to have ben n jerry's ice cream...
stayed there till like 12 like tat...den took cab back home...
had a great time on fri!!!!
really a great gathering...though is only a small group of us...
haha...

den sat...went to crystal house stayover!!!!
got...me...janice...elsa...yc...jk...sh...
had a great time too!!!!played mj overnight...haha...

den followed by today...
went shopping with crystal n eve...
i spend...108 bucks!!!!!!
bought a 70 bucks bag...
i love the bad a lot!!!!!!!!
n a top for 38 bucks...
haha...love it too!!!!
my feelings r like a bit gulity n a bit of happy...haha...

tml...
not sure...maybe going swimming with crystal...at elsa's place...
but TBC...haha...

afterwards for the 2 weeks break will be PROJECTS PROJECTS PROJECTS!!!!
sianz...

but before sch starts...
u need k box session!!!!

2007-12-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

bitch??? left out???

these words have been occurring in my head for the whole day
n i dunno y

2007-12-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

i dead for my common tests

feel sooo stupid

2007-12-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

all those shity feelings is back again
no one understands how it feels

it feels tat i m always the second
no matter wat happens
i m always place the second

2007-11-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

can someone wake up me plz!!!

plz!!!!

i feel so useless
dunno wat to do or say to make my friend feel better

2007-11-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

haiz

feeling sooo lazy

n

gulity

2007-11-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

i want to say sorry for my attitude today

really sorry...

2007-11-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

heard dis song on the tv juz now

n i fell in love with dis song

though dis is quie a long time ago song

but is really nice...

n the lycris is very meaningful

emo-ing

2007-11-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

stayover at crystal house yesterday to do afa project...

feel sooo bad tat i din fu chu sooo much...

on the other end...
i love the girls' talk...
we should have more stayover n girls talk more often!!!!

during te 2 weeks break!!!!

2007-11-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

i m really tired

exhausted

brain dead

everyday reach home
is juz soo tiring
brain draining

i juz want to have abreak!!!

2007-11-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

i falling deeper n deeper

feel like i m drowning soon...

can someone save me???
rescue me???

n juz cant get out off my mind

2007-11-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

i think i m going crazy soon

no one understands

2007-11-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

now at dis point of life...

i want to thank a few pple who r always there for me...

steph n crystal...
i want to thank you guys for always being there for me...
if not for u guys...i dunno where i will be now...
so many things happen...
without u guys...
i think i will be a goner...
n crystal thanx for the hug!!!

really thanx u guys!!!

eve sister...
sister...
though we r sooo far apart now...

but....
i still love u!!!!
n i love watching ah mei concert with u!!!!
if she next time come...
i will sure watch it with u!!!!

n i miss watching korean drama with u n stayovers!!!

jane...
i love u manz gal...
thanx for always letting me vent my anger...
n i m very ps always sending u all the msg with my anger...

cant wait to see u!!!

THANX U GUYS!!!!

different pple in my life
but all my BFFs...

2007-11-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

r we back where we use to be???

is it me or...r u ignoring me...

feels tt there is a barrier inbetween us...

or m i thinking too much...

it juz driving me crazy...

2007-11-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

looks like everyone is not in a good mood dis days...
everything juz seem soo wrong...
n everyday is juz so tiring...
project project n project...
tutorial tutorial n tutorial...

henowmeignoringis
haiz

2007-11-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

doesntcarehemuchmeanymore

or m i thinking to much???

2007-11-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

想太多

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

2007-11-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

juz stab me in the heart now plz!!!

2007-11-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

juz came back from ah mei concert!!!!!!

its a GREAT!!!!
EXECELLENT!!!
NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE
concert!!!!!!!!!

my first ever concert...
n my most favourite concert!!!!

ah mei i love u!!!!!

will go n see her concert again

when she comes again!!!

u guys muz go!!!!

2007-11-08T04:13:00.000+08:00

now is 4am...

juz finish watching 恶作剧之吻

i love dis show...

coz is actually how i m feeling now...

3 years is a long time...
i myself cant believe i cant stand it for 3 years...
its not like is so easy to give up...

单恋是很痛苦的事
one-side love is painful

2007-11-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

it sounds crazy...

but i still do get jealous...

2007-11-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

sch is so meaningless now...

no motivation to go sch...

like a mention to my friend...
aquarious is having sooo much bad encounter dis year...
countless...

overseas study???
doubt so...
but hope so...

2007-10-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

not in the greatest mood today

everything is soo screwed today

speak less than 20 sentences when i reach home

2007-10-28T00:13:00.001+08:00

crystal....

lets jia you tgt!!!

2007-10-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

read a letter...

a letter which my bro wrote to my parents...
i din want to read it...
coz i noe if i read...tears will start to fall...
but my mum ask me to read n tell her wat pro my bro is having...

as i was reading...i can feel wat my bro is going through...
coz is exactly wat i m n was going through...
tears was holding back...
n my mum keep asking my questions which i dun want to ans...

in the end my mum was like coming to a conculsion like...my bro is having stress...
which he is not...
coz i noe how exactly how he feels n all...

i was really proud of my bro
tat he wrote out all his feelings to my parents...
an action which i even now still dun dare to do...

coz even if i voice out my feelings...
they will keep saying things which i dun want to hear...
saying like my friends r not good...dun get close to them...
blah blah blah...

n i feel exactly the same way like wat my bro tat...
everday reach home ear naggings scoldings...
make me dun feel like going home...
tats y i like to stayover at other pple home instead...

haiz...
dunno wat will happen in future...
so many things happening in my house...

a house which is never like before...
its really very saddening...
a home not as warmth as before...
where is the warmth i m longing for???

2007-10-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

life has been sooooo boring ever since sch stars....

class sux...

practically no life now...

2007-10-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

it feels like there r many daggers behind my back

n it feels kind of scary

2007-10-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

scared

no one can understand how scared i m...

wish the someone tat i hope will read my blog is reading....
but i doubt so...

2007-10-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

sch starts...

holidays r over...

dunno wat will happen in the coming months...
kind of scare...
kind of scare tat the relationship between some friends will change...

feel very bad tat some things happen...
feel very sorry...
want to apologize...
really sorry...
really sorry tat i had neglected u...
really sorry...

wat will happen???
i dun want to think so much..
but i cant...
i cant stop thinking...

someone save me...

2007-09-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

have u guys watch high school musical 2???

it rocks!!!

i love dis song sang by vannssa hudgens
"Gotta go my own way"

Gabriella: I gotta say what’s on my mind
Something about us doesn’t seem right…these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try
Somehow the plan is always rearranged
It’s so hard to say
But I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay…
(CHORUS)
I’ve got to move on, and be who I am
I just don’t belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someda
yBut at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Gabriella: Don’t wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to greyAnd it’s just too hard…to watch it all…slowly fade away
I’m leavin’ today
’Cause I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay
(Chorus)
Troy: What about us?
What about everythingwe’ve been through?
Gabriella: What about trust?
Troy: You know I never wanted to hurt you
Gabriella: What about me?
Troy: What am I supposed to do…
Gabriella: I gotta leave but I’ll miss you
Troy: …miss you
Chorus (Repeat)